There is an emptiness
I know what it comes from
It is here because she isn’t
I am not used to being alone
Not this alone

For days
For days and days
Nearing weeks
I am lost in my own home
I am lost in my own body

I know where she is
I know why she’s there
That doesn’t change anything
I know she cries
It breaks my heart

The house gets darker earlier
The house stays darker longer
It is quiet

Normal sounds bother me now
Everyday sounds
Everyday occurrences
I don’t answer my phone
I don’t call anyone back

This is all my fault
If I were different
Things would be different
I would be like everyone else
I wouldn’t be alone and empty

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