Emptiness

There is an emptiness
I know what it comes from
It is here because she isn’t
I am not used to being alone
Not this alone

For days
For days and days
Nearing weeks
I am lost in my own home
I am lost in my own body

I know where she is
I know why she’s there
That doesn’t change anything
I know she cries
It breaks my heart

The house gets darker earlier
The house stays darker longer
It is quiet
Quiet
Quiet

Normal sounds bother me now
Everyday sounds
Everyday occurrences
I don’t answer my phone
I don’t call anyone back

This is all my fault
If I were different
Things would be different
I would be like everyone else
I wouldn’t be alone and empty

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